My sweet little girl is growing so fast. It just seems like yesterday we were preparing for your arrival. Now, you are 4 months. Weighting in at 15 lbs and 25 inches long. You are my little chunky one but I love every little chunk roll. You love people and smile at everyone even creepy people that you should learn to say stranger danger. However I know you are going to be a caring and compassionate person. Your eyes capture everyone’s heart and that smile just melts it! We are blessed, that is for sure. No one will ever know the struggles and heartache I had to go through to have you here. but every tear and pain was worth it. I set here and look through all the photographs I have of you. I am sadden to see I didn’t capture as many at home candid memories as I show have. I feel like I always have to capture “perfect” images at home and forget it’s not about the perfect pictures its about those memories you want to persevere. I really get upset thinking about how much time I wasted trying to catch up on sleep and not snap photos. But the amount I have are still dear to my heart. I think that really is what makes memories special. You can’t have every single shot but you can have some that are perfect. <3
I think being a mother has changed me completely. My life revolves around them, My needs come in last but I am sure many moms can relate to that. But I wouldn’t change it, I wouldn’t want it any other way. As my children are my life and they keep me going when days I feel like I want to just give up. You know how you feel so tired the life is just drain out of you? But your kids energy level is like 10 red bulls? Yeah, us moms have ALL been there. But you look at those sweet dirty faces and see those toothless and half missing teeth and just smile because who couldn’t love a kid telling you unfunny knock knock jokes and talking about her shoes and little tutu. It’s those little candid moments in life that we all live for. We all want to have in our life. The years get shorter when you have kids. Or for me at lease. I feel like each coming year we are rushing to get to some holiday, or birthday or maybe your wedding date. I can’t bare to think about getting married because that would mean my sweet babies will be a year older! I don’t even want to begin to think of Abby walking or Savannah being six or Austin being 17. NO! Just not something I even want to think about. God then I will be a year older.. yeah so what I mean is who wants to rush the days away? I mean I wish it was 5pm every day my lovely hubby leaves for work. I hate when he is gone from my side BUT I know he has to work. These past 4 months have just flown by and that to me is so sad. I watch my little ones learn new things, reach new mile stones and I am over here with a box of tissues crying my eyes out like I seen “A walk to remember” (By the way if you never seen that movie you will NEED a box of tissues) This life, this mother hood, this is what the world is all about. And luckily I get to capture it daily just need to learn to put down the iphones and ipads for awhile and pick up the big guns (my camera). If you are a mom and do that same thing like me. Stop. PUT it down and get that camera or you can hire me… (Big smile, huge eyes kind of look) to do the work for you! Either way don’t let those little moments in life get away. They are grown and gone before you know it
